Big sister, we need to get a key for the door. I'm tired of 'I didn't hear you knock!' or 'I thought you were sleeping' or 'I knocked three times!' or 'Kejap!!!'. For all you know, I might be 'brooking'. Hahahaha.
I think I'm funny.
"You have a cute butt."
Thank you for brightening my day, Veena. 
I dropped my phone for the umpteenth time a few minutes ago. Now I don't have anything covering the screen. I'm not sad. I'm unaffected.
But this chest pain is really bothering me.
Today I learnt that it is easier to pretend you're happy. And how to catch peas too.
It's true, sometimes all you have to do is just ask.
It's already February. Have you noticed?
I'm a recluse
I'm a recluse
I'm a recluse
I'm a recluse
I'm a recluse
I'm a recluse
I'm a recluse
I've run out on adjectives.
No change here. Not anytime soon.
What I wrote on November 30th 2006
What’s weird about this thing called life is that you learn from your mistakes but sometimes you don’t get a chance to show it. Sometimes you know you’re doing the wrong thing but you just go on and do it anyway. Sometimes you want to stop and you succeed, only to find you’re back to square one at the end of the day. Sometimes you never fail, but you wonder what you have learnt. Sometimes you wonder if it’s worth it, but you never take the risk because somehow you managed to convince yourself to be content with what you have. Sometimes you try to see the good side of it all, and it disappoints you.
Haven't been updating, I know. School's been taking all my time (yeah right). But assignments are piling and there are notes to be finished. Thank God it's the weekend. Anyway, my hands are shivering from all the throwing. I bet I'll be sore in the morning. But basketball was fun.
I made a new friend today. His name is Daniel and he's very quiet and I like that. He's an iguana.
It's a shame you cannot speak your mind nowadays. Even if you are telling everyone what you think, there's always something you cannot disclose. Even little things, like how you feel male teachers shouldn't be allowed in the girls' lavatory. We change there, for heaven's sake! Yea yea, everyone wants to make a difference.
I need to make a few phone calls and act very old.
Ridiculous weather, unfit for homework and essays. Hehehe. And I forgot the shop didn't have any iced lemon tea.
OK, it's no use lying to yourself. I'm almost always broke. 
I have a lot of things to do. DAMN IT!
I haven't been able to call anyone my friend for the longest time. Refraining is sometimes invalid but necessary.
This isn't brooding. THIS is necessary.
"Say I talk in riddles and I will be content.
Say my known language is Lies, that I cannot deny.
Say I do not care, I would carry on,
Life's everyday affairs, day by day, dawn after dawn."
Interesting.
I'm so excited about sleeping until noon. I finished Maths just now, right before I decided I was too sleepy to sketch my graphs for Physics. I think I left my clothes in the machine again. Go and check now.
So they exchanged chocolates and flowers today. Yes, they do that. Hmmph. 
The most unorganized week, EVER. This past week has been about late lunches, missing erasers and shoes that don't fit. How messed up can someone be?
Cheers to the long-awaited holiday.
We carried out an experiment today. Turns out I have pretty-looking cheek cells. We even took hair and scalp samples. Biology is fun when the teacher remains stationary, roaming around only to look at your specimens.
As you all know, I use 1/3 of my time everyday having conversations with myself. Today we talked about how some of us fail to appreciate what we have until it's gone. Sometimes that person/thing we have is so special, it gets so scary when you think about what you'd do if they'd have to leave. And you deny the fact that they would have to one day. But how long can you refuse to admit the truth?
Today I'm telling you to look around. But who am I to judge.
OK, I know my everyday life is utterly boring that I have nothing substantial to talk about, but I don't think anyone gives a damn. All these buts.
Gloomy mornings to you. I wake up with a sense of eagerness only to find that I'm still very much attached to you.
Today, I feel very useless. I cannot say anything. Can't do what I think is right. Cannot be smart.
You guys can go to hell.
Who laughs with you? Are they the ones that would cry with you? Maybe not all the time. Maybe not at all. So keep things to yourself.
You know, it really doesn't matter what you do. In the end, there's always someone telling you it's wrong. If you're lucky, they'll give you the silent treatment.
Pardon all the negative energy, life's just not working out lately.
I hate talks behind my back. You've proven your worth.
Haven't started on anything yet. I'm very lazy.
So I lied. Hehe. (You can skip the first part because I doubt I'll make any sense)
Anyway, today I remembered how to focus on the better side of things. Not everything has a good side, unfortunately. And it's very crucial that we don't lose ourselves trying to find the balance.
This is an example of a written monologue.
How would you feel if you waited for someone and when the time came, that someone disappointed or stood you up? Well I'll tell you how I felt. Other than rage, I felt super. Perhaps I'm just not very tolerant.
I'd like to get rid of the people I don't like very much, but then there wouldn't be much to talk about. I'd like to write about colourful and lively stuff, but it's doesn't pay to be nice. I'd like to be good at everything, but what good is everything if you end up wanting more? Humans..
I'm confessing.
I genuinely care about certain people. I really hope the best for them, although I might not be vocal about it.
I don't know what made me think I could sustain on bread and tuna alone. I'm heating up the tuna now, after 2 hours of pondering whether the tummy ache was because I didn't eat enough for dinner.
I'm definitely not the most creative person I know. What does it take to make my Chemistry notes look decent? Heh. I'm going to start all over again.
Anyway, I woke up feeling very productive this morning (11.59 is still morning). Indeed, I found myself cleaning the dusty boxes under my bed and finally decided to put on the bed sheet, and the pillows. I don't sleep on my bed so you don't have to remind me how much of a slob you think I am, thank you. Prior to that I washed my clothes AND hanged them out too. It feels good to clean, sometimes.
I find it funny (and slightly irritating) that some people think it's cool to "fuck couple". Never say never, dude. I also think that guys who say "I know how to treat a woman" are full of crap. You'll never treat a lady right if you have to say it out loud in the first place.
Since I'm very much in the mood to blog right now, I'm also going to tell you that I'm feeling very mushy. I just watched The Wedding Planner and it kind of reminds me about a situation I'm very familiar with.
Tomorrow I'll be making spaghetti for myself, and big sister too, if she's going to be home. I'm actually confused as to why I'm so excited.
Boring entry alert.
I'm finally done with Chemistry. Moving on with Physics now. And then Biology. After that AddMaths. Maybe I'll finish the essay today. If I'm lucky, I'll get my History notes done too. How many days did you say we had, teacher?
Lazy ass.
Finally got into Tabulas after 2 days of failed attempts. Does anybody know why the hell it's so slow lately?
So it's normal again! 
I'm tired, and I need a bath. Actually I've got a lot going on in my head right now. I don't know where to start.
Anxiety irritates me. See the relativity? I could just drop dead this instant.
I have tuition at 5pm but I don't feel like going. But I need to because I'm not very bright.
I sit on the fence when it comes to a lot of things. I choose not to like or dislike. Most of the things anyway.
I will be very busy today. I shan't waste time anymore. At least for today. Hehehe. OK, chowtime.
