ejaculate, and disperse

I'm an insect repellent. And they're the insects. Blah.

A girl cried when she couldn't answer a question during AddMaths just now. Take a guess. I so suck.

Ok, I'm tired of being the rescuer. Bring a rope wherever you go. I really am a nice person (), but that doesn't mean that I wanna be with you forever and ever. And I don't even know your father's name!

All over the place, I know. 

D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-N-G, this is.

p/s: I did not get an E for AddMaths.   

You know, there are times when you'd wish you had more control over your life-- and sometimes other people's(well maybe that's just me). But when you have it in your hands, right in front of you, would it be just as fun as when you were pursuing it? Would you rather turn back time and just go with the flow?
Life's all about choices. Then again, everything is a state of mind. How can we be sure a choice is the right one when we are not entitled to choose in the first place? What if it was wrong altogether?

Life's about questions. And coming up with answers you're not so sure of yourself, just to buy you some time until you really figure everything out.

Funny how I don't feel all warm inside. I mean, it's Jude Law for heaven's sake. I'm not even interested to know the end.

How come.
What did I say anyway? Ok, it's what I didn't say.

If you feel you have to prove something, you're letting them get to you. Why choose to make your life more complicated? It's already hard enough trying to get by without breaking down every once in a while.

How come it's easier to give rather than receive? Doesn't feel very good, though.

1. I never feel good about this. It's nauseating, really. You told me I don't have to worry but I think that's just part of your plan.

2. Maybe I just think too much. But trying to think that you're not thinking is already thinking, is it not?

3. I know the words, and I sing along. Now if only you would sing it for me.

4. Not desperate but what you said was true. Half of it anyway.

5. I don't want to be seen, only heard. Only heard.

6. It's like a tug-o-war. But I never know when I should let go and when I should pull. Most things come with a manual, you know.

7. You're indecisive and I'm just an excuse. Your excuse.

8. If you understand this, you still don't deserve to feel good about yourself, but you can go get yourself a cake.

9. I think I have a pretty good memory but the things I remember are of no use.

10. I'm close to regretting but I have some will power left, just enough to sustain me till we're done. (but you couldn't even decide on that, could you?)

What's the price of a good sleep nowadays?

I just want to read but I have work to do.  

It shouldn't be wrong to say you're tired of something you like. It's not like you're going to stop liking it.

You know how watching people eat makes you hungrier? It doesn't feel as good as is should be when you eat. Whatever Marlene. I think I'm beginning to bore myself.

I'm getting tired of the new Nelly Furtado! Sheesh.

When you really want to help but there's so little you can do.

Did you know there are idiots walking on this planet? Unbelievable.  

I'd like to keep our interests separate. Should you find any similarities, ignore them and just shut your hole. Ok.

Ok, first attempt to blog for real.

I'd have to finish my notes if I want to feel better. Honestly, I think I'm the laziest person I know. And the teacher's so nice. Ergh. Got my shoes in the pail and will be scrubbing away in 10 minutes. Have I mentioned I hate my school shoes? It gets very dirty and I have no idea how. The midterms start on the 24th I think. I don't remember anything about solid geometry. You know, we should really change the whole system. I think it'd be better if we sit for tests right after a chapter or whatever. Then we'll be super geniuses!

If blogging was some form of exam, I'd fail.

He held her in his arms and kissed her miseries away. And in the morning he left.

And I shall live forever and ever and ever!

I'm feeling way better after that sleep. I think dying would not be as painful. I hate vomiting.

I think I like Coke now. Maybe it's just some kind of post-severe abdominal pain,vomiting,diarrhea, & fever thing. (in that order)

Resentment can disguise itself in many ways.

So here I am, taking advantage of HELP's computer lab. I'm supposed to be memorising. OK, see you.

How I wish I could just ignore everyone and have my own little bubble that's nice and comfy like my own little room where I can just sit and think but probably not too much 'coz then my head will ache but maybe after that sip some tea 'coz tea is the best especially with lemon but you don't get tea with lemon if you're too damn lazy ok? OK.

How can you just assume that's how I feel? Am I not worth the effort.

April 1, 1997

1) How old were you? I was only 5 years and 9 months old! How bout that all you old people..

2) Where did you go to school? I think I was in kindergarten, but I'm not so sure..

3) Where did you work? I was just suckin my thumb, man.

4) Where did you live? Gombak.

5) Where did you hang out? My momma's lap? Suckin my thumb man!

6) Did you wear glasses? I was just starting to wear panties, and you're talking about glasses. Get a grip, man.

7) Who was your best friend? No best friend. Everybody scared me.

8 ) How many tattoos did you have? None.

9) How many piercings did you have? Didn't have any.

10) What car did you drive? A tricycle maybe? But they didn't get one for me so I didn't drive anything ok..

11) Had you been to a real party? I don't remember..

12) Had your heart broken? Of course not, silly.

April 1, 2002

1) How old were you? 10 and 9 months..I'm depressed now..

2) Where did you go to school? SKTSG 

3) Where did you work? Didn't have time to work, man. Haha. Underaged la.

4) Where did you live? Gombak.

5) Where did you hang out? Was not allowed to go out.

7) Who was your best friend? Alyiana I think. And I think it's the wrong spelling..

8 ) Who was your regular-person crush? Some guy..You know when you like a guy soo much, a year later, he doesn't look as good..Haih..

9) How many tattoos did you have? None.

10) How many piercing did you have? None.

11) What car did you drive? I couldn't drive.

12) Had you had your heart broken? Nope. I didn't know about all this mushy-mushy stuff ok..

April 1, 2007

1) How old are you? 15 years old and 9 months.

2) Where do you work? At home.

3) Where do you live? Gombak.

4) Do you wear glasses? Nope.

5) Where do you hang out? Still nowhere.

6) Who is your best friend? Have none.

8 ) Do you talk to your old friends? Define old. (See now I know how to talk crap)

9) How many piercing do you have? Three.

10) How many tattoos? None.

11) What kind of car do you drive? Hmmph.

12) Has your heart been broken? I guess.

Bleh. Mr. Mood is not very well coz Mr. Food is not here yet.

I am an idiot for letting these things happen to me.

 Nothing beats having the whole house to yourself and having control over how much cheese you want on your spaghetti. I mean, no control. Well you get the picture.