ejaculate, and disperse

You can fulfill the supposedly necessary physical and emotional prerequisites, in one way or another, but if the heart still clings onto sentiments from the time long past, the mind will continue to waver and wonder. 

I find myself to be more interested in the elements that has made him into what he is today instead of what he's had for lunch this afternoon. The allure of mystery is just as strong as the hunger for enlightenment.

Self-psychoanalysis is more strenuous than I thought it would be.